Confused

I don't know what kind relationship I do now, really don't know. Don't know what should I do now, ended or let it happened again and again? Really confuseeed, if I say it must end so fast like this, I'm really gonna miss him, miss his treat to me. But if I still with him, I don't know...

I just can't trust him anymore, I just can't accept what he did yesterday, and my mind ejected it. Really I can't, but if I say so to him, I had known what kind his answer, but Allah please, can't him understand me? Just this time. Can't him? Really Allah, I don't want relationship like this. I know in his perseption it was just usual, but for me it was really unusual and deep inside I can't accept.

Allah, could him understand this? He's sensitive, but why he can't understand me... I'm type of girl who did like that. And I can't tell it to anyone, can't. Don't know to whom I should tell this...

Please, understand me, if you can't, I'm gonna leave you maybe...