I have no idea, lagi anniv 8bulanan nih, tapi ya nothing special, selalu gitu sih, tapi kali ini ya beda aja bawaannya, semalem kepikiran pengen putus, ya so what? Bawaannya males aja... Pengen putus banget malah, udah dipikirin banget matang-matang.
Eh paginya dia bbm pagi baik-baikin aku, gamungkin dong, bales sewot, yaudah dibaikin aja, terus berantem lagi, dan gatau kenapa baik lagi. Kadang entahlah. Berantemnya pun gara- gara dia jahat gak ngabarin, serasa jadi pacar posesif, tapi gimanalah, dia hampir kena DO, kena panggil orang tua, kena hukum ini-itu, tapi aku gak tau apa- apa, pantas marah kan? Di sisi lain seharusnya nenangin dia gak bolehin dia becanda- becanda seketerlaluan gitu. Tapi entahlah...
Terus besok- besok kalo dia udah jauh, berantem- berantem terus, apa lagi yang dipertahanin? Tapi paling bikin salut sama dia, segimanapun marahnya dia, cemburunya dia, dia tetap aja care, tetap mau jemput- jemput, marahnya cuman sebentar, gak dendam.
Disatu sisi pengeen bangett peluk kenceng-kenceng terus bilang "aku sayang banget sama kamu" but I can't... Gabisa act buat nunjukin kalo dia itu emang berharga buat aku.
Sabtu, 09 November 2013
Senin, 16 September 2013
And now, what else?
gatau lagi mesti gimana, kesel, marah, kecewa, sedih, pokoknya campur aduk. gak nyangka kejadian lagi yang kayak gitu, ini baru 2 kali denger masalah yang sama, terus dibelakang aku gimana? udah lebih dari 5kali gitu? kecewa bangetlah sama kamu, bisanya nge-bossy. terus aku kamu anggep apa? boneka? katanya saling jujur, tapi apa?...
holding on, the days drag on, stupid girl, i should have known.
terus aku bisa apa sekarang? apa lagi yang bisa diharapin? mau apalagi? udah banyak berkorban gini.
just look at me, can't you?
holding on, the days drag on, stupid girl, i should have known.
terus aku bisa apa sekarang? apa lagi yang bisa diharapin? mau apalagi? udah banyak berkorban gini.
just look at me, can't you?
Senin, 15 Juli 2013
Alhamdulillah, 17th
Kalo ga inget pengorbanan kamu bela- belain ke padang mah, gabakal pergi aku, perut sakit banget, hujan deras, kamu gatau gimana worriednya aku, gimana was- wasnya aku takut ketauan. Bela- belain bohong sama mama papa, dikasih duit banyak pula. Bela- belain ga buka sama papa mama di hari ulang tahun, tapi pa, ma, maaf, seakan- akan ngeproriotaskan pacar daripada orang tua.
Tapi aku juga ga mau ngecewain kamu, bilang iya-tapi enggak belakangan.
Baru kali ini ulangtahun takut aja bawaannya, takut temen- temen pada gak ngucapin, inilah, itulah. Padahal sih pengennya ulangtahun bareng temen sama dedek, tapi ya mereka pada gabisa. Jadi ga muluk- muluk, pengennya bisa buka bareng sama kamu, yaudah itu aja. Walaupun pada awalnya takut banget ketauan, bahkan waktu dedek berenti didepan, papa dibelakang mobilnya-_- bohong lagi jadinya..
Terima kasih untuk 4 setengah jam semalem, udah bikin ketawa lepas, tanpa mikir beban apa- apa:)
I know your priority is your father, your mother; your parents. I ever feel scared and sad being second. But now I think it true, orang tua ya mesti jadi prioritas, mereka udah susah payah buat memperjuangkan kita. Sekarang sih ngerasa bersalah aja udah cemburu sama orangtuanya dedek. Jadi ngerasa sucks banget gara-gara pernah mikir gituan.
But one thing that I conclude tonight is you do love me, not because birthday cake, not because doll that I like, but I knew you never lie when you say that you love me. I'm not the number one of your priority, but I know I am one of your priority. I am the number one girl, and I'm glad to know that. I don't wanna overthinking anymore, I'm try to be grateful. He won't publish, he won't say in crowd that he love me, but I know for sure he do love me, very much.
And for complete this. I love him too, so much. He is the one and only♥☺
Tapi aku juga ga mau ngecewain kamu, bilang iya-tapi enggak belakangan.
Baru kali ini ulangtahun takut aja bawaannya, takut temen- temen pada gak ngucapin, inilah, itulah. Padahal sih pengennya ulangtahun bareng temen sama dedek, tapi ya mereka pada gabisa. Jadi ga muluk- muluk, pengennya bisa buka bareng sama kamu, yaudah itu aja. Walaupun pada awalnya takut banget ketauan, bahkan waktu dedek berenti didepan, papa dibelakang mobilnya-_- bohong lagi jadinya..
Terima kasih untuk 4 setengah jam semalem, udah bikin ketawa lepas, tanpa mikir beban apa- apa:)
I know your priority is your father, your mother; your parents. I ever feel scared and sad being second. But now I think it true, orang tua ya mesti jadi prioritas, mereka udah susah payah buat memperjuangkan kita. Sekarang sih ngerasa bersalah aja udah cemburu sama orangtuanya dedek. Jadi ngerasa sucks banget gara-gara pernah mikir gituan.
But one thing that I conclude tonight is you do love me, not because birthday cake, not because doll that I like, but I knew you never lie when you say that you love me. I'm not the number one of your priority, but I know I am one of your priority. I am the number one girl, and I'm glad to know that. I don't wanna overthinking anymore, I'm try to be grateful. He won't publish, he won't say in crowd that he love me, but I know for sure he do love me, very much.
And for complete this. I love him too, so much. He is the one and only♥☺
Sabtu, 29 Juni 2013
☀
"Can't count the days on one hand that we've been together. They said it wouldn't work but what did they know? Cause years have passed and were still here today"
Gak tau deh mau ngeposting apa, dia lagi di dhamasraya, 10 hari disana. Sebelum dia pergi iyasih tiap hari ketemu. Dan sehari sebelum dia pergi, sempat berantem gara-gara dia ngelarang pergi keluar, ampunlah. Mana bisa diatur- atur gitu. Terus libur gakboleh kemana- mana gitu? Mama papa aja nggak ngelarang, sedangkan dia? Okelah alasannya "gak baik cewek keluar tiap hari, trus apa kata orang kalo keluar tiap hari" tapi ya mana bisa, this is my life, mine, not their. Sampai diancam mau putus gara-gara itu, dibikin nangis, bikin sedih aja. Trus dia baik- baik, menyebalkan banget gak sih-_-
Jadi, yaa jelas ajasih gak bisa lepas dari dia, gak bisa jauh- jauh dari dia. Sayang banget. Bisa dibilang gitu. Sampai- sampai temen- temen ada yang bilang kalo aku dipelet dedek, saking sayangnya sama dia. Mereka gak tau apa- apa, People say we shouldn’t be together. We're too young to know about forever. They don’t know how special you are, they don’t know what you’ve done to my heart, they can say anything they want 'Cause they don’t know us, they don't know about us. Don't know. I've tried to ask myself, should I see someone else? I wish I knew the answer.
Tapi kadang sih, males banget kalo telfonan lama- lama sama dia, bikin berantem. Ada aja yang bikin berantem. Dikit- dikit dianya sensitif. Tapi gak bisa ngerasain kalo akunya tersinggung dikit aja. But so thank you patient to faced me. Thank you for teaching me how to be strong. No matter fights, argues, miss understood, silences we passed. And now, I miss you, miss you so bad
"So baby, say you'll always keep me, truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you. In love with you. No one ever makes me feel like you do when you smile"-
Gak tau deh mau ngeposting apa, dia lagi di dhamasraya, 10 hari disana. Sebelum dia pergi iyasih tiap hari ketemu. Dan sehari sebelum dia pergi, sempat berantem gara-gara dia ngelarang pergi keluar, ampunlah. Mana bisa diatur- atur gitu. Terus libur gakboleh kemana- mana gitu? Mama papa aja nggak ngelarang, sedangkan dia? Okelah alasannya "gak baik cewek keluar tiap hari, trus apa kata orang kalo keluar tiap hari" tapi ya mana bisa, this is my life, mine, not their. Sampai diancam mau putus gara-gara itu, dibikin nangis, bikin sedih aja. Trus dia baik- baik, menyebalkan banget gak sih-_-
Jadi, yaa jelas ajasih gak bisa lepas dari dia, gak bisa jauh- jauh dari dia. Sayang banget. Bisa dibilang gitu. Sampai- sampai temen- temen ada yang bilang kalo aku dipelet dedek, saking sayangnya sama dia. Mereka gak tau apa- apa, People say we shouldn’t be together. We're too young to know about forever. They don’t know how special you are, they don’t know what you’ve done to my heart, they can say anything they want 'Cause they don’t know us, they don't know about us. Don't know. I've tried to ask myself, should I see someone else? I wish I knew the answer.
Tapi kadang sih, males banget kalo telfonan lama- lama sama dia, bikin berantem. Ada aja yang bikin berantem. Dikit- dikit dianya sensitif. Tapi gak bisa ngerasain kalo akunya tersinggung dikit aja. But so thank you patient to faced me. Thank you for teaching me how to be strong. No matter fights, argues, miss understood, silences we passed. And now, I miss you, miss you so bad
"So baby, say you'll always keep me, truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you. In love with you. No one ever makes me feel like you do when you smile"-
Jumat, 28 Juni 2013
They don't know about us
People say we shouldn’t be together
We're too young to know about forever
But I say they don’t know what they're talk-talk-talkin’ about (talk-talk-talkin’ about)
'Cause this love is only getting stronger
So I don’t wanna wait any longer
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine girl
Oh
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
One touch and I was a believer
Every kiss it gets a little sweeter
It’s getting better
Keeps getting better all the time girl
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know how special you are
They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart
They can say anything they want
'Cause they don’t know us
They don’t know what we do best
It's between me and you, our little secret
But I wanna tell 'em
I wanna tell the world that you're mine girl
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s (I love you)
But I bet you if they only knew (if they only knew)
They would just be jealous of us (they would just be jealous of us),
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right (feels so right)
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know about us
They don’t know about us
We're too young to know about forever
But I say they don’t know what they're talk-talk-talkin’ about (talk-talk-talkin’ about)
'Cause this love is only getting stronger
So I don’t wanna wait any longer
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine girl
Oh
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
One touch and I was a believer
Every kiss it gets a little sweeter
It’s getting better
Keeps getting better all the time girl
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know how special you are
They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart
They can say anything they want
'Cause they don’t know us
They don’t know what we do best
It's between me and you, our little secret
But I wanna tell 'em
I wanna tell the world that you're mine girl
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s (I love you)
But I bet you if they only knew (if they only knew)
They would just be jealous of us (they would just be jealous of us),
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right (feels so right)
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us
They don’t know about us
They don’t know about us
June, 28th 2013
Udah lama banget gak ngepost di blog. Udah 2bulanan lebih. Sekarang sih ga sibuk apa-apa. Lagi liburan. Dan mono sekali. Iyasih kemaren abis pulang homestay kelas. Badan sakit- sakit. Lengan sampai punggung susah digerakin. Kaki pegel- pegel. Iyasih secara keseluruhan acaranya gakjelas gitu, bosan. Awalnya dibus foto- foto abis itu dangdutan, terus bosen. Sampai mifan nggak langsung masuk penginapan, ngegembel dulu didepannya, duduk-duduk di tenda. Makan. Sholat. Renang. Renangnya pun kepecah- pecah, tapi waktu ombak seru, anak- anak cowok setia banget giring anak cewek yang pake benen, haha seneng banget bawaannya kalo inget itu, terus bereksperimen cara gimana bisa naik 6orang di benennya. Kebalik- balik terus. Terus anak cowok ambil bannya anak cewek. Tukang rusuh haha
Abis renang puceet aja bawaannya, gara-gara tibatiba badai, gerimis, padahal baru 3 jam renang udah pucet aja. Abis renang mandi, duduk di depan tv, ngemil bareng. Malemnya yang rencananya bakar- bakar batal, gara-gara lupa bawa bara. Jadinya jagung rebus-_- ngajarin anak cewek main song haha awkward banget. Terus tidur- tidur sama anak cewek dikamar. Abis itu mono. Keluar rumah gara-gara bikin ngantuk didalam. Dan seterusnya. Jam1 malam mereka pada ngerjain yang udah tidur, dikasih hitam- hitam sumbu kompor terus dicorengin ke mukanya, diletakin garam di bibir, ngasih air garam. Terus bosen, tidur lagi. Paginya kebangun gara- gara suara langkah kaki-_- menyebalkan banget. Tidur cuman 3jam. Diajakin jogging. terus sampai akhirnya anak kelas pada jogging semua, dan aku sendiri yang tidur. Tapi dibangunin satpam, ditarikin kaki sama dia-_- akhirnya keluar pergi jalan- jalan. main remi pake body lotion. Dan selalu menang. Renang~ bukittingi meele- ele. Di bus main jujur-jujuran.
Hhhh actually iya sih, kurang berkesan, gak greget. Tapi tetap aja. Tetap aja, will miss that moment. Feel want happened dan replayed again. Although it was not like I've wanted, like there were fights, arguments, not solidarity, groups, gossips, rumors, and each others. But that was alright, everyone wanted change, wanted let their ego, their selfish way, to make a togetherness between us
Thank you for (one year) memories we have been through. Eleventh science one:*♥
Abis renang puceet aja bawaannya, gara-gara tibatiba badai, gerimis, padahal baru 3 jam renang udah pucet aja. Abis renang mandi, duduk di depan tv, ngemil bareng. Malemnya yang rencananya bakar- bakar batal, gara-gara lupa bawa bara. Jadinya jagung rebus-_- ngajarin anak cewek main song haha awkward banget. Terus tidur- tidur sama anak cewek dikamar. Abis itu mono. Keluar rumah gara-gara bikin ngantuk didalam. Dan seterusnya. Jam1 malam mereka pada ngerjain yang udah tidur, dikasih hitam- hitam sumbu kompor terus dicorengin ke mukanya, diletakin garam di bibir, ngasih air garam. Terus bosen, tidur lagi. Paginya kebangun gara- gara suara langkah kaki-_- menyebalkan banget. Tidur cuman 3jam. Diajakin jogging. terus sampai akhirnya anak kelas pada jogging semua, dan aku sendiri yang tidur. Tapi dibangunin satpam, ditarikin kaki sama dia-_- akhirnya keluar pergi jalan- jalan. main remi pake body lotion. Dan selalu menang. Renang~ bukittingi meele- ele. Di bus main jujur-jujuran.
Hhhh actually iya sih, kurang berkesan, gak greget. Tapi tetap aja. Tetap aja, will miss that moment. Feel want happened dan replayed again. Although it was not like I've wanted, like there were fights, arguments, not solidarity, groups, gossips, rumors, and each others. But that was alright, everyone wanted change, wanted let their ego, their selfish way, to make a togetherness between us
Thank you for (one year) memories we have been through. Eleventh science one:*♥
Minggu, 12 Mei 2013
Where Are You Now
Where are you now
When I need you the most
Why don't you take my hand
I want to be close
Help me when i am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong
Take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be I need you to set me free
Yeah
Where are you now
Where are you now
Now that I'm half grown
Why are we far apart
I feel so alone
Where are you now
When nothing is going right
Where are you now
I can't see the light
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah, yeah
I need you, to need me
Cant you see me
How could you leave me
My heart is Half empty
Im not whole
When your not with me
I want you You with me
To guide me, hold me, love me now
Where are you now
Woahhh...
Where are you now
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah, yeah
Ohhh...
Where are you now
When I need you the most
Why don't you take my hand
I want to be close
Help me when i am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong
Take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be I need you to set me free
Yeah
Where are you now
Where are you now
Now that I'm half grown
Why are we far apart
I feel so alone
Where are you now
When nothing is going right
Where are you now
I can't see the light
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah, yeah
I need you, to need me
Cant you see me
How could you leave me
My heart is Half empty
Im not whole
When your not with me
I want you You with me
To guide me, hold me, love me now
Where are you now
Woahhh...
Where are you now
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah, yeah
Ohhh...
Where are you now
Sabtu, 27 April 2013
Deg-deg
Awalnya sih hari ini biasa- biasa aja, yang beda sih paling status ya udah beda, terus dedek gaada bbm lagi, bbm semalem gadibales atau sinyalnya bermasalah. Disekolah banyak jam kosong-_- mono banget. Terus abar fuad baca bbm aku sama dedek pake logat "aneh" keras- keras, tim adiwiyata datang, anak- anak kelas sembunyi kebelakang, haha beneran lucu, awkward.
Sampai rumah kira-kira jam4 dan gak ada orang, itupun abis pergi ketemu sama bang irfan, cerita- cerita gitulah. Kekunci, mono-_- terus tiba-tiba revi nelfon, telfon berempat sama gelsi fitria revi. Lama- lama bang ayat dateng, terus cerita bentar kalo bilang aku putus, terus blablabla. Waktu aku bilang dedek minta ketemu, bang ayat sewot, "kalo dia mau ketemu suruh dia ke rumah skekarang" yaampun kaget banget waktu bang ayat bilang gitu. Seriusan gue, kirain bang ayat becanda- becanda gitu, eh ternyata serius,
Daaaan gilanya, aku bbm dedek supaya dia kerumah. Awalnya sih dedek nanya- nanya ada mama, segan- segan gitu, eh ternyata dianya mau, sumpah kirain dedek gakmau, geregetan bangettttt swear. Deg- degan, langsung mandi cepat- cepat, sempatin sholat. Deg- degan banget, beneran, masih gak ngangka itu kenyataan. Terus sms dia, tanya dia dimana, terus akhirnya dia sms bilang "aku udah di gang depan rumah kamu". Kompromi dulu sama bang ayat gimana caranya ajak dia masuk, jalan ke depan gang deg- degan bangetttt, muter arah liat ke imut ngilangin rasa deg-degan. Tapi malah tambah deg- degan, sumpah benerannn.
Sampai didepan gang, ketemu dia, mukanya itu sedih, capek, suram, sumpah sedih banget liat dia gitu. Terus aku bilang aja "ikutin aja aku, tapi aku gamungkin naik boncengan kamu, rumah aku yang ada abang didepannya" terus aku jalan, setengah jalan baru dia pake motor masuk gang. Sampai didepan rumah, aku gaberani liat ke dia, sambil jalan bilang "bicara sama abang aku ya", langsung masuk rumah, sumpah takuuuut rasanya, cemas, campur aduk, ada senang juga. Terus masuk kamar mama langsung teriak histeris. Si imut kan aku suruh ngintip-ngintip dari luar, keliatannya sih dia cemas gitu, sumpah gaberani liatt gue. Smsin gelsirevifitria, eh abis itu pulsa habis pula-_-
Akhirnya bang ayat manggil suruh keluar, bayangkan aja, dedek minta balikan didepan bang ayat. Bicarain tentang bio twitter, ttg kenapa aku mutusin dia, dan asiknya lagi, kak ipit, bang dede juga keluar. Jadinya rame. Oh iya bahkan dedek sempat salaman sama mama kak ika, si bigossss. Duh astajim, pokoknya gang jadi rame aja, padahal biasanya sepi. Ngeselin bangetlah. Sekitar sejaman dedek didepan rumah, untung aja mama sama papa lagi ketempat nenek, sumpah itu unpredictable bangettt. Ga direncanain, sumpah.
Thank you to came bravely to my house, spoke with my brother, and another things you did last night. Thank you for make me alive (again) I hope since now we have chemistry so that I can love you more than this. And as you know, too much love will kill you darling;)
Sampai rumah kira-kira jam4 dan gak ada orang, itupun abis pergi ketemu sama bang irfan, cerita- cerita gitulah. Kekunci, mono-_- terus tiba-tiba revi nelfon, telfon berempat sama gelsi fitria revi. Lama- lama bang ayat dateng, terus cerita bentar kalo bilang aku putus, terus blablabla. Waktu aku bilang dedek minta ketemu, bang ayat sewot, "kalo dia mau ketemu suruh dia ke rumah skekarang" yaampun kaget banget waktu bang ayat bilang gitu. Seriusan gue, kirain bang ayat becanda- becanda gitu, eh ternyata serius,
Daaaan gilanya, aku bbm dedek supaya dia kerumah. Awalnya sih dedek nanya- nanya ada mama, segan- segan gitu, eh ternyata dianya mau, sumpah kirain dedek gakmau, geregetan bangettttt swear. Deg- degan, langsung mandi cepat- cepat, sempatin sholat. Deg- degan banget, beneran, masih gak ngangka itu kenyataan. Terus sms dia, tanya dia dimana, terus akhirnya dia sms bilang "aku udah di gang depan rumah kamu". Kompromi dulu sama bang ayat gimana caranya ajak dia masuk, jalan ke depan gang deg- degan bangetttt, muter arah liat ke imut ngilangin rasa deg-degan. Tapi malah tambah deg- degan, sumpah benerannn.
Sampai didepan gang, ketemu dia, mukanya itu sedih, capek, suram, sumpah sedih banget liat dia gitu. Terus aku bilang aja "ikutin aja aku, tapi aku gamungkin naik boncengan kamu, rumah aku yang ada abang didepannya" terus aku jalan, setengah jalan baru dia pake motor masuk gang. Sampai didepan rumah, aku gaberani liat ke dia, sambil jalan bilang "bicara sama abang aku ya", langsung masuk rumah, sumpah takuuuut rasanya, cemas, campur aduk, ada senang juga. Terus masuk kamar mama langsung teriak histeris. Si imut kan aku suruh ngintip-ngintip dari luar, keliatannya sih dia cemas gitu, sumpah gaberani liatt gue. Smsin gelsirevifitria, eh abis itu pulsa habis pula-_-
Akhirnya bang ayat manggil suruh keluar, bayangkan aja, dedek minta balikan didepan bang ayat. Bicarain tentang bio twitter, ttg kenapa aku mutusin dia, dan asiknya lagi, kak ipit, bang dede juga keluar. Jadinya rame. Oh iya bahkan dedek sempat salaman sama mama kak ika, si bigossss. Duh astajim, pokoknya gang jadi rame aja, padahal biasanya sepi. Ngeselin bangetlah. Sekitar sejaman dedek didepan rumah, untung aja mama sama papa lagi ketempat nenek, sumpah itu unpredictable bangettt. Ga direncanain, sumpah.
Thank you to came bravely to my house, spoke with my brother, and another things you did last night. Thank you for make me alive (again) I hope since now we have chemistry so that I can love you more than this. And as you know, too much love will kill you darling;)
Kamis, 25 April 2013
Hello D, how are you? Fine? I hope so. I'm sorry for what I did yesterday that hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt you, really. Nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect for you and we can't go back.
I'm sorry. I'm never gonna be good enough for you, I can't stand another fight and nothing's alright. Please understand me, as you know, I'm bleeding too, its hurt and hard for me, like you do. I hope this is the best way for us.
Wanna hear the truth? I still love you, its real
I'm sorry. I'm never gonna be good enough for you, I can't stand another fight and nothing's alright. Please understand me, as you know, I'm bleeding too, its hurt and hard for me, like you do. I hope this is the best way for us.
Wanna hear the truth? I still love you, its real
Rabu, 24 April 2013
Perfect
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Senin, 22 April 2013
Maaf, aku ingin putus
Entah harus darimana ku memulai kata-kataku
Resah gelisah tak menentu, dari jauh lubuk hatiku
Bukan, bukan keinginanku tuk mencoba meninggalkanmu
Namun tak bisa ku jelaskan, aku takut menyakitimu
Berat rasanya, berat rasanya untuk
Ungkapkan kata meski melawan hati
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Berat rasanya, berat rasanya untuk
Ungkapkan kata meski melawan hati
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Resah gelisah tak menentu, dari jauh lubuk hatiku
Bukan, bukan keinginanku tuk mencoba meninggalkanmu
Namun tak bisa ku jelaskan, aku takut menyakitimu
Berat rasanya, berat rasanya untuk
Ungkapkan kata meski melawan hati
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Berat rasanya, berat rasanya untuk
Ungkapkan kata meski melawan hati
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Sayang maafkan aku ingin putus
Sayang maafkan kita harus putus
Sabtu, 13 April 2013
Confused
I don't know what kind relationship I do now, really don't know. Don't know what should I do now, ended or let it happened again and again? Really confuseeed, if I say it must end so fast like this, I'm really gonna miss him, miss his treat to me. But if I still with him, I don't know...
I just can't trust him anymore, I just can't accept what he did yesterday, and my mind ejected it. Really I can't, but if I say so to him, I had known what kind his answer, but Allah please, can't him understand me? Just this time. Can't him? Really Allah, I don't want relationship like this. I know in his perseption it was just usual, but for me it was really unusual and deep inside I can't accept.
Allah, could him understand this? He's sensitive, but why he can't understand me... I'm type of girl who did like that. And I can't tell it to anyone, can't. Don't know to whom I should tell this...
Please, understand me, if you can't, I'm gonna leave you maybe...
I just can't trust him anymore, I just can't accept what he did yesterday, and my mind ejected it. Really I can't, but if I say so to him, I had known what kind his answer, but Allah please, can't him understand me? Just this time. Can't him? Really Allah, I don't want relationship like this. I know in his perseption it was just usual, but for me it was really unusual and deep inside I can't accept.
Allah, could him understand this? He's sensitive, but why he can't understand me... I'm type of girl who did like that. And I can't tell it to anyone, can't. Don't know to whom I should tell this...
Please, understand me, if you can't, I'm gonna leave you maybe...
Jumat, 12 April 2013
Miley- I hope you find it
These clouds aren't going nowhere, baby
Rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you, baby
For you got too far outta town
And I hope that you get this message
That I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing
The words that I need you to
And I hope you find it
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever?
Last words that I said
But that was nothing but a broken heart talking, baby
You know that wasn't what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message
I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing
The words that I need you to
And I hope you find it
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Whatever it is out there
That you were missing here
And I hope you find it
What you're looking you
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
No, no, no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it
Rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you, baby
For you got too far outta town
And I hope that you get this message
That I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing
The words that I need you to
And I hope you find it
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever?
Last words that I said
But that was nothing but a broken heart talking, baby
You know that wasn't what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message
I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing
The words that I need you to
And I hope you find it
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Whatever it is out there
That you were missing here
And I hope you find it
What you're looking you
And I hope it's everything you dreamed
Your life could be and so much more
And I hope you're happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
No, no, no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it
Selasa, 09 April 2013
9th
Gak nyangka udah sebulan aja sama dia, gara-gara abis sama bang tegar udah putus asa aja, pasti gabisa pacaran lama, takutnya sih gitu, berasa kena kutuk aja gara-gara dia-__- but now? 1bulan rasanya udah alhamdulillah haha, tapi yang disedihin sekarang, kenapa sih dedek terkesan gak ada waktu banget, ngejemput pulang udah jarang banget malah, awal- awalnya aja yang "segitunya" sekarang? Jangankan ketemu sekali seminggu, ini udah hampir dua minggu ga ketemu. Iyasih aku-nya juga sibuk akhir- akhir tapi dianya juga sama sekali gaada niat. Tapi ya mau gimana. Bisa dibilang sih sayangnya sama dia waktu bisa ketemu sama dia tiap hari, waktu jalan- jalan, bisa cerita- cerita, ngerasain nyamannya bareng dia. Feel so full:)
Terus lagi kan, kadang sedihhh aja rasanya, susah, susah ngebawa bawa diri ke dia. gabisa jadi yg kayak dia mau, dia suka, disatu sisi sukaa banget lembutnya dia, sayangnya dia ke aku, tp disatu sisi gabisa sama dia, dia terlalu lembut buat aku, gabisa imbangin:( dianya sensitif pun, jutek dikit aja, dianya sedih, tapi sekarang lumayan siih, dianya udah ngerti aku juga kali ya hehe, sekarang sih biarin aja semuanya terjadi gimana mestinya, gakmau mikir muluk- muluk dulu, capek, ntar makan hati. Apalagi cerita dari ayu kemaren, agak gimana rasanya gitu, agak kesel, tapi mau gimanalah. Mau apalagi? Udah lewat juga.
Tadi geregetan terus seharian, just unbelievable☺☀
"Ku tau ku takkan bisa menjadi seperti yang engkau minta, namun selama aku bernafas aku kan mencoba"
Hello April, 9th 2013
Happy anniversary 1th month dear, even just 31 days (just a number actually) we passed together, I'm lucky having you...
Terus lagi kan, kadang sedihhh aja rasanya, susah, susah ngebawa bawa diri ke dia. gabisa jadi yg kayak dia mau, dia suka, disatu sisi sukaa banget lembutnya dia, sayangnya dia ke aku, tp disatu sisi gabisa sama dia, dia terlalu lembut buat aku, gabisa imbangin:( dianya sensitif pun, jutek dikit aja, dianya sedih, tapi sekarang lumayan siih, dianya udah ngerti aku juga kali ya hehe, sekarang sih biarin aja semuanya terjadi gimana mestinya, gakmau mikir muluk- muluk dulu, capek, ntar makan hati. Apalagi cerita dari ayu kemaren, agak gimana rasanya gitu, agak kesel, tapi mau gimanalah. Mau apalagi? Udah lewat juga.
Tadi geregetan terus seharian, just unbelievable☺☀
"Ku tau ku takkan bisa menjadi seperti yang engkau minta, namun selama aku bernafas aku kan mencoba"
Hello April, 9th 2013
Happy anniversary 1th month dear, even just 31 days (just a number actually) we passed together, I'm lucky having you...
Selasa, 26 Maret 2013
laguku-ungu
Mungkinkah kau tahu
Rasa cinta yang kini membara
Dan masih tersimpan
Dalam lubuk jiwa
Ingin kunyatakan
Lewat kata yang mesra untukmu
Namun ku tak kuasa
Untuk melakukannya
Mungkin hanya lewat lagu ini
Akan kunyatakan rasa
Cintaku padamu rinduku padamu
Tak bertepi
Mungkin hanya sebuah lagu ini
Yang selalu akan kunyanyikan
Sebagai tanda betapa aku
Inginkan kamu...
How are youja?
Rasa cinta yang kini membara
Dan masih tersimpan
Dalam lubuk jiwa
Ingin kunyatakan
Lewat kata yang mesra untukmu
Namun ku tak kuasa
Untuk melakukannya
Mungkin hanya lewat lagu ini
Akan kunyatakan rasa
Cintaku padamu rinduku padamu
Tak bertepi
Mungkin hanya sebuah lagu ini
Yang selalu akan kunyanyikan
Sebagai tanda betapa aku
Inginkan kamu...
How are youja?
Selasa, 12 Maret 2013
Now and then
Sometimes I feel soo saved when he hold my hands, when he look into my eyes, when he said "I love you" slowly near my ear, when he kiss my forehead, when he hug me, actually I don't know what is it love, but I think I'm fall in love with him, really so deep in love. With him, I feel nothing wrong, nothing will be wrong
Sabtu, 09 Maret 2013
9.03.2013
Kemaren itu rasanya awkward banget, ga mikir bakal ada something special would be happen. Siang siangnya pergi nonton dbl liat smantri main, waktu dijalan kaget- kaget garagara dibelakang mobil ada ninja hijau bang tegar, shocked banget, waktu mau masuk pun papasan, tapi udahlah, malesin juga. Kagetnya garagara udah lama galiat dia padahal satu sekolahan.
Abis panas- panasan nonton dbl, ke pantai dulu ngadem sambil cerita- cerita masalah revi kemaren, ga berujung pangkal. Dedek janji ngejemput, yaudah aku oke- oke aja, si gelsi sama fitria rempong bgt soalnya. Terus kan kiranya dedek ngejemput pake mobil, yaudah karna si gelsi fitria ribet banget gatau kemana anterin mereka keluar, maunya sih ya, pergi berempat bareng- bareng mereka gitu kayak pergi sama rakel, tapi kan ga mungkin, aku sama dedek masih pdktan. Waktu nyamperin dedek pun sepatu kanan aku masuk ke lumpur, sial bgt-_- Terus kan kita muter- muter, masih belum tau kemana, terus dia ngajak makan, yaa biasalah aku kalo ditanya pergi makan sih bilang "terserah" dia nya ngotot mana ada tempat makan terserah, yaagitudeh, akhirnya kita ke ht spbu. Dia nya suka banget megangin kepala aku, padahal ya biasanya aku gasuka, but with him I feel saved and comfort. Dia nya tenang banget, baik, penyayang, sabar pula.
Sampai di ht ya kita mesen terus kita bicara- bicara, dia nya melotot- melototin matanya, baru sadar kalo dia sipit haha, yang ngeselinnya sama dedek dia bilangin aku loyo terus-_- ah tapi sudahlah. Dia asma. Cerita- cerita ttg keluarganya, temen temen smp aku, temen smp dia. Sebenernya segan bgt harus dia yg bayar semuanya, tapi gimanalah, aku jd diam ga berkutik waktu dia bayar bill. Aku nyuruh dia solat, yakin bgt dia solat cepat- cepat takut aku mati bosan nungguin dia solat.
Waktu liat jam, masih jam 7.03 jadi dedek bilang puter- puter pantai aja sampai jam8. Abangnya gelsi lg marah- marah, jadinya aku dianter dedek pulang. Yang lucunya mereka histeris waktu aku bilang aku mau ke pantai haha, maaf sering ngerepotin kalian:* at the first he hold my hand, and i dont know why i didnot ignore to hold his hand too, and then he asked me isnt ok he do that, really I'm confused, but he really a gentle. How can I ignore him? And then I said its ok. And from veteran until home he still hold my hand, sometimes he put my hand on his thigh or on his stomach until my hand sweat. He become anxious about my condition, he become sooo well in my mind. He warm up my hands and fussy why I am like that, dont care at all with my body. And when in front of blue tend in the car he said that he love me, he feel saved with me, he said that I'm kind, beautiful, not arrogant. But he just dont know, not yet. I'm too moody. And then I said yes I wanna be with him. I dont know what i feel now, but he treat me, like I am is his princess. Actually I can't a relationship so fast like this. But I do now, for him:)
Abis panas- panasan nonton dbl, ke pantai dulu ngadem sambil cerita- cerita masalah revi kemaren, ga berujung pangkal. Dedek janji ngejemput, yaudah aku oke- oke aja, si gelsi sama fitria rempong bgt soalnya. Terus kan kiranya dedek ngejemput pake mobil, yaudah karna si gelsi fitria ribet banget gatau kemana anterin mereka keluar, maunya sih ya, pergi berempat bareng- bareng mereka gitu kayak pergi sama rakel, tapi kan ga mungkin, aku sama dedek masih pdktan. Waktu nyamperin dedek pun sepatu kanan aku masuk ke lumpur, sial bgt-_- Terus kan kita muter- muter, masih belum tau kemana, terus dia ngajak makan, yaa biasalah aku kalo ditanya pergi makan sih bilang "terserah" dia nya ngotot mana ada tempat makan terserah, yaagitudeh, akhirnya kita ke ht spbu. Dia nya suka banget megangin kepala aku, padahal ya biasanya aku gasuka, but with him I feel saved and comfort. Dia nya tenang banget, baik, penyayang, sabar pula.
Sampai di ht ya kita mesen terus kita bicara- bicara, dia nya melotot- melototin matanya, baru sadar kalo dia sipit haha, yang ngeselinnya sama dedek dia bilangin aku loyo terus-_- ah tapi sudahlah. Dia asma. Cerita- cerita ttg keluarganya, temen temen smp aku, temen smp dia. Sebenernya segan bgt harus dia yg bayar semuanya, tapi gimanalah, aku jd diam ga berkutik waktu dia bayar bill. Aku nyuruh dia solat, yakin bgt dia solat cepat- cepat takut aku mati bosan nungguin dia solat.
Waktu liat jam, masih jam 7.03 jadi dedek bilang puter- puter pantai aja sampai jam8. Abangnya gelsi lg marah- marah, jadinya aku dianter dedek pulang. Yang lucunya mereka histeris waktu aku bilang aku mau ke pantai haha, maaf sering ngerepotin kalian:* at the first he hold my hand, and i dont know why i didnot ignore to hold his hand too, and then he asked me isnt ok he do that, really I'm confused, but he really a gentle. How can I ignore him? And then I said its ok. And from veteran until home he still hold my hand, sometimes he put my hand on his thigh or on his stomach until my hand sweat. He become anxious about my condition, he become sooo well in my mind. He warm up my hands and fussy why I am like that, dont care at all with my body. And when in front of blue tend in the car he said that he love me, he feel saved with me, he said that I'm kind, beautiful, not arrogant. But he just dont know, not yet. I'm too moody. And then I said yes I wanna be with him. I dont know what i feel now, but he treat me, like I am is his princess. Actually I can't a relationship so fast like this. But I do now, for him:)
Sabtu, 02 Maret 2013
Akhir- akhir
Gaada yang bisa diceritain akhir akhir ini, ya gitu- gitu ajasih sekarang, kalo bang tegar paling papasan atau liat dia dr jarak 2m atau bahkan 10m, tp gapenting lg, gaada yg musti diceritain.
Sekarang kan lg musim- musimnya ssc disekolah, leong ikutan main, hari pertama dia tanding gue galiat, hari kedua liat sampai quarter3, bikin dia kepedean, gataudeh maksud aku apa buat nontonin dia, cuman ya pengen liat dia sekarang aja, ketiga kalinya dia tanding sih hari jumat, bela- belain buat balik ke sekolah padahal udah nyantai banget dirumah, tp dianya tu gatau sih gimana pengorbanan aku, udah jadi mantan tp aku masih gini kan ke dia, terus lg tadi semifinal, gatau deh dia menang atau enggak, soalnya ga minat nonton. Lama- lama mungkin ilfeel aja liat dia.
Tadi lagi sibuk- sibuknya sama kelas, kerumah heri panas-panasan, ambil- ambil kelapa, balik lagi kerumah dika, makan kelapanya disana rame-rame, main domino pake bedak, kalah-_- egik ngegombal, abis itu main truth or dare versi korea wkwk ulah abar. And the fact appear:) so thank you for all the truth that you hide. Kebawa- bawa curhat semuanya, don't know why I'm feel saved when with them, nyuci gelas bareng dika, romantiss (´̯ ̮`̯ƪ) bicara ngambang sama dia, balik main truth or dare, pulang jam6an {} sometimes we have to feel bored so that after that, there's a time that we feel glad:)
Sekarang kan lg musim- musimnya ssc disekolah, leong ikutan main, hari pertama dia tanding gue galiat, hari kedua liat sampai quarter3, bikin dia kepedean, gataudeh maksud aku apa buat nontonin dia, cuman ya pengen liat dia sekarang aja, ketiga kalinya dia tanding sih hari jumat, bela- belain buat balik ke sekolah padahal udah nyantai banget dirumah, tp dianya tu gatau sih gimana pengorbanan aku, udah jadi mantan tp aku masih gini kan ke dia, terus lg tadi semifinal, gatau deh dia menang atau enggak, soalnya ga minat nonton. Lama- lama mungkin ilfeel aja liat dia.
Tadi lagi sibuk- sibuknya sama kelas, kerumah heri panas-panasan, ambil- ambil kelapa, balik lagi kerumah dika, makan kelapanya disana rame-rame, main domino pake bedak, kalah-_- egik ngegombal, abis itu main truth or dare versi korea wkwk ulah abar. And the fact appear:) so thank you for all the truth that you hide. Kebawa- bawa curhat semuanya, don't know why I'm feel saved when with them, nyuci gelas bareng dika, romantiss (´̯ ̮`̯ƪ) bicara ngambang sama dia, balik main truth or dare, pulang jam6an {} sometimes we have to feel bored so that after that, there's a time that we feel glad:)
Selasa, 26 Februari 2013
Goodbye
Sekarang lg jam kimia, tp malesin banget harus ikut remedi, kemaren satu lagi mimpiin dia, iyasih akhir- akhir udah ga mikir kesana lagi, udah nyantai, lagian dia sekarang jelek-_- rambut unyu nya yg aku suka udah dipotong, dia bukan tegar gue yg unyu lagi,liat diapun udah jarang, tp gue takut mimpi itu, gue bela-belain buat dia...
Dan ini yg terakhir buat kamu bang, segimanapun kamu ngenilai aku, sejahat apapun aku dimata kamu, sekurang ajar apapun aku dimata kamu, kalian, mereka. Yang penting itu cuman sudut pandang km nilai aku aja bg, aku ga sepenuhnya kayak itu intinya. Aku jg gatau kamu gimana sifat aslinya, jadi tolong jangan jelek-jelekin aku apapun itu bang, persepsi kita beda, cara pandang kita beda..
Bdoh, baru sadar, khilaf, hilda-_-
And so, now, goodbye bang☺ no matter what happen later to you, me or us. I will not do fake relationship like before, don't want play your game like I do before;)
Dan ini yg terakhir buat kamu bang, segimanapun kamu ngenilai aku, sejahat apapun aku dimata kamu, sekurang ajar apapun aku dimata kamu, kalian, mereka. Yang penting itu cuman sudut pandang km nilai aku aja bg, aku ga sepenuhnya kayak itu intinya. Aku jg gatau kamu gimana sifat aslinya, jadi tolong jangan jelek-jelekin aku apapun itu bang, persepsi kita beda, cara pandang kita beda..
Bdoh, baru sadar, khilaf, hilda-_-
And so, now, goodbye bang☺ no matter what happen later to you, me or us. I will not do fake relationship like before, don't want play your game like I do before;)
Jumat, 22 Februari 2013
So..
Gatau deh tiap malem bawaannya mellow, sepi, suram. Sedih sih enggak, tapi masih kebawa-bawa perasaan, sekarang sih mending, tadi ga papasan sama dia, liat sih dari jarak 10m, but sure I'll stay away, ga tau musti bersikap gimana, maunya sih sapaan kayak biasa, tapi kalo udh face to face banget sedih aja bawaannya, lidah rasanya ga bisa ngomong. Dianya juga ngindar, sebenernya apa daya sih, bukan siapa-siapa, dia jg udh punya lagi, sedihhh banget rasanya keulang lagi hal yang sama kayak leong dulu☹ malah lebih parah lagi...
Ah sebenernya males banget mikirin orang yang ga mikirin kita lagi, tapi ya mau gimana, stuck-_- kenapa sih susah banget move kalo abis putus, tapi yang kali ini nyoba buat dewasa ajadeh, lagian pasti ada penjelasan buat segala hal, gatau kapan bakal terungkap, tapi semua pasti bakal ada penjelasan, itu aja. No matter how long, I'm keep waiting, even it was old story, it like a misery, like a hole. But as you know, I'm not hoping you anymore, who do you think you are? I'm not a doll who silly and stupid to play your games like before:)
but darling, honestly, I miss you in the past☹ the only one I miss most, is your text messages
Ah sebenernya males banget mikirin orang yang ga mikirin kita lagi, tapi ya mau gimana, stuck-_- kenapa sih susah banget move kalo abis putus, tapi yang kali ini nyoba buat dewasa ajadeh, lagian pasti ada penjelasan buat segala hal, gatau kapan bakal terungkap, tapi semua pasti bakal ada penjelasan, itu aja. No matter how long, I'm keep waiting, even it was old story, it like a misery, like a hole. But as you know, I'm not hoping you anymore, who do you think you are? I'm not a doll who silly and stupid to play your games like before:)
but darling, honestly, I miss you in the past☹ the only one I miss most, is your text messages
Rabu, 20 Februari 2013
You just don't know...
You don't know that I'm trembling, when suddenly you come in front of my eyes, do you know what I feel? Do you ever feel your heartbeat become faster and you become a stranger people, don't know what to do, avoid or face one on one?
Am I idiot become a stranger when we meet unexpectedly? Am I wrong feel this? You never feel the same right? Actually I'm ok if you are not around, but I just can't avoid this feeling when you are in my sight, not yet.
You don't know that I'm try, you don't know how hard I'm keep positive when negative thinking nominated my mind.
You just don't know...
Am I idiot become a stranger when we meet unexpectedly? Am I wrong feel this? You never feel the same right? Actually I'm ok if you are not around, but I just can't avoid this feeling when you are in my sight, not yet.
You don't know that I'm try, you don't know how hard I'm keep positive when negative thinking nominated my mind.
You just don't know...
Senin, 18 Februari 2013
thank you:)
Awalnya ya kaget sih tiba-tiba dapat berita kamu udah pacaran sama dia bang, hal yang pernah aku takutin ternyata jadi kenyataan juga, sayang banget Allah ke aku bang. Ga tau deh musti sedih atau marah sama kenyataan yang ada, but life must go on right? Segimanapun, ini ya kenyataan, yaah makasih ajasih buat segalanya yang pernah kita jalanin, aku tau dia pasti nyesal nyia-nyiain kamu, tapi aku? Yah beda bangetlah ceritanya. Lagian kalo kita jodoh kamu bakal balik ke aku kan? Ga perlu juga aku yang ngejar ngejar kamu:)
With love,
Your ex-girlfriend
With love,
Your ex-girlfriend
Minggu, 10 Februari 2013
tegar:')
tegar waktu main bola di kompi, dengan sejuta kenangan ongok:') wkwk. sama gita ke kompi ngebuat kesan seakan- akan nungguin dia main bola, ah bang, kenapa musti sih kita pacaran:') mending gausah sama sekali, thank you for everything you do, hurt, pain, games, and love:)
note: tegar yang idiot pake manset hitam panjang
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